SleepWalking

Colors
What's up?
I look around and see grey.
Scared and nervous.
Are the keywords today.
Why is this true for me?
Why don't I trust God.
I do, but not enough.

It's sad to wonder why.
I'm so shaken inside.
Heart skipping
Just flipping out
Shaking with anxiety
A flake without a case.
Because there's no reason for it.

Medicine cabinet full.
Cartons of cigs.
And a zippo.
And my computer..

Help me Lord.
To understand.
And relieve this sillyness.
Unbelief.. Fear..Sin

Katie.... I love you.
I'm sorry...
You are still my dream girl.
And I never want to wake up.
From your wonderful love.

I'm sleepwalking now..
Walk into my warm bed.
Goodnight.