2007 Review

1. Got divorced in Jan. It was a short marrage.... What a struggle... But you can't always get what you want..But if you try sometime... Ya get what ya need... Those days seem like a dream to me now... I think I saw her during the holidays at a restaurant...She sent me a text saying something about how I "looked better last year". But then taking a look at my current girlfriend I'd say I look better THIS year.
2. Moved back to Tulsa - Home is where the heart is.... I vowed never to leave tulsa again...But you know, stuff happens... You never know what I'll do.... Crazy world huh?
3. Fell off the Wagon - Like, a Friday nite thing for a few weeks... This was in the spring. By August I was drinking Windsor daily... It got really crazy there for awhile... But I am certanly enjoying recovery again way more than the party train.... Sobriety/God Kicks ass... You know what I'm sayin?
4. Started working on art projects.... Wrote and produced a techno record...Gave it away to lots of my recovery homies... You can get a copy online....Free of course... Also worked on lots of recovery comment art and uploaded them to a website...
5. Watched my kid become a punk/Goth - I guess it was only inevitable...She certainly has the story to justify becoming dark... She has been through a hell of a lot more than most kids who wear that badge around... "Nobody understands me" Please....
   
6. Hung out with my other kid. She makes me proud... I see her as often as I can..But it just ain't enouph...
   
7. Slept - Just not enouph of it you dig?
8. Worked - The harder and heavier the work...The more I like it...
9. Recovery meetings...I been to over 140 or so in the past 3 1/2 months
10. Found smokes I can afford.... Hey! smoke if ya got em..

Guess that's all I can say for now....Also! Check the Ice Storm!

Happy Chritmas

I hope everyone has a great one.... Chritmas is a good thing even tho it is kinda stressful... Life is good these days... The last couple of Christmas's really sucked for me...But things are looking up...
Shine on Folks

I put together a full length record for all of my new (and old) friends.... I also have it available for download under my domain at davestuff.us

Check it out And give me a little constructive criticism.

Merry Christmas All!

During the Strom!

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Ice Storm

Wow... Like the movie ya dig?
My power was down for days... Like 6 of em.... I was quite stressed believing that I would need a guy out here to repair damage to my house electric box but it's all good... I came by after work to witness the power come up.... Great feelings of relief...

The storm as brutal as it was had magic to it... The ice storm of 2007 is a winter I should never forget.... Sweetness and Light indeed...
Shine on!

Black Out

It's just like a dream
All the places I have been
And the world that I see
Just keeps on Crumbling

Take a look at my past
All the times that I was trashed
I got thrown outta the band
I just kept wondering

I wonder what I did last night (x2)
In my blackout I lost track of time

I was driving while high..
Until I saw the flashing red lights.
They threw my can in jail.
Got no wife or job to make bail..
And I'm in HELL

I wonder what I did last night
In my blackout I lost track of time

High School speech class failed me now.
In front of a judge somhow
Words and sounds came ouuta mouth
Incoherient mummbling

So then I pray and confess
God get me outta this mess
This time I'll pass the test...
But I just kept stumbling

I wonder what I did last night.
In my blackout I lost track of time
In my blackout I lost track of my mind..

I now have no more fear.
Drinking water instead of beer
My head is crystal clear..
Now I''m in recovery

First Week of Dec

And Christmas is right around the corner....

• Pre teen crazyness..
• Relationship woes..
• Confusion.
• Un-Supervised acting out
• Lonelyness
• Drama
• Recovery
• Solid Advice
• Overtime
• Company party
• 100's of smokes
• 2 meetings daily
• Depression
• Crushes
• Buckets of coffee...
• Wired Caffine

What a week...Thank God it's friday....

Wow... Like, totally

Working with a new guy now.... He is very active and is demanding.... Looks like it's what I needed... He pushed me in an excersize of "self esteem" tonight.... That guy's a trip ya know?

Shine on man... Keep coming back.....

Love Insanity

I don't believe I have seen anybody love as she does.
Absolute commitment in spite of rejection and lies.
Just keep going back for more.

She's a friend of mine.
Beautiful. Confused. Hurting.

She gives new meaning to the song:
"If you leave, I'm going with you"
She tells me she's crazy...
I guess Shakespeare was right.
Love is insanity...